when you're away.
when you're not here.
when i feel alone even if im not.
when things start to fall down.
when they crash around me.
when i feel like i have no one when i have everyone.
when i feel so down i might turn to drugs again.
when i need you here and you're not.
when i fall asleep crying.
when i try to think hard why then realize its not the question.
when i try to smile and i just end up thinking about punching someone.
when i just try to think how im gonna get through another fuckin day.
when i just keep quiet and smile to pretend im okay
when i go out to have fun but i still feel incomplete.

i dont know what to think anymore.
i dont know how im gonna get through this.
im in my weakest state right now, so if anyone would wanna step on my head and crush my skull it would be okay, i wouldnt fight back, i wouldnt even make a noise.

so tell me, what am i gonna do?

07.04.10 / 11:31PM