I just finished reading Nikki Sixx's book. It was a masterpiece. Enough said.

What bothers me is that I can relate too much to him. Well maybe not the heroin part, but with life in general, and how he was before now. I have alot of questions too, suppressed shits and a fucked up past. Maybe i'll make a book one day with all of my entries just like what he did with his. Maybe right before I get married? and put something like 'The Scene Diaries' or something as a title. And ask people i've included in my past posts how they feel about me posting about them now HAHAHA.

That's a really great idea. Yeah. But right now, i'm feeling so down as it is, Work was okay, I got my first pay from that company tonight. I would've stayed and celebrated one of my workmate's birthday, i wanted to half the bottle of GSM Blue as soon as i saw them but my love for family overcame my love for alcohol. Which is a good thing too!

Taggy's grandma died. As much as i wanna comfort him, it would be best for me to stay here at home and let him deal with it on his own coz i'd probably be bringing him down more with my own drama, so i think this is for the best this time. My condolences Robin.

I gotta go, I just realized that I can't be late for work again, too much responsibility, can't afford to fuck this up, i'm doing something i'm normally supposed to do without being told, to work. So yeah.

Imma leave you with this beautiful song...

Yesterday was hell. Ugh. I had like 1 hour or so of interrupted sleep then the event was draggy as hell. If only my sister wasn't hosting. Nzo kept running around, the food wasn't that great but still I ate ALOT. haha. Fucking waitresses from the buffet! They were giving me minimal amounts of food so i just told them to put alot so I wont have to go back and forth haha. When we got home, i dropped flat on the bed and fell asleep.

Work was hard today but it feels so good being so productive. Show tomorrow, can't go to work. UGH. i hate it when i miss work. Then on wednesday, i have to go judge a dance contest at UST. Taggy went home with me, we ate dinner here at home. FUCKING TRAFFIC wasn't able to see Nzo awake, brought him burgersteaks. UGH.

Sleepy. Feeling down. Not in a good mood. UGH.

Here's a video for you guys, kinda dwelling on feeling down.

Supposed to just stay at home. Still kinda down from yesterday. But yeah, went to the office for a shoot. Will post pictures when i get them. Passed by Tri. Ecko. ZooYork. Draggy. Slow. Still Painful. Ugh. Can't forget. Fuckin' things happening like that, i hate it. It messes up my head. Anyways, Happy Anniv. RDR. BV din don. Nauwi sa skygarden, at knocked up. Went home around 2AM. I dunno anymoreeeeeeee. I dunno.

GUESS WHAT?

I'm not having a great day.

Well I was when I spent it with Nzo and found out Taggy was coming over. But as soon as he opened his mouth, *POOF* smile vanished. In an instant, my smile got wiped outta my face so hard like a surfer bailing on a hundred foot wave, then replaced by this really really painful heartburn then quickly shifted into anger. Yes, you read right.

Why? you might ask. Well, first, he didn't tell me he would get off work 7PM, all along I thought he'd get off at 9. No texts, no nothings. So then he finally texted past 9PM, telling me he wasn't going to Dutdutan aymore and shit, and that he asked me if it's okay to drop by or something. So I just waited for him. Then we went to Third's place, we got INVITED to drink LOL. Fuck what I said last night about trying to stay sober. So there we was, drinking... Then suddenly he opened up that he watched a movie with this girl Buena.

WHAT THE FUCK, RIGHT?

I broke my heart into tiny little pieces coz I told him i wanted to watch it. Then he was like, yeah yeah... I even asked him to watch it with me, but then he couldn't because of work. And then I hear from him that he saw it already... with another girl. Well first off, I don't give a fuck if she was a friend, i seriously don't. He could've texted me. He could've thought of me just staying home by myself. He could've thought I wanted to watch THAT movie. But he didn't. So what the fuck does that mean? Here I am trying to better myself for this guy, trying to behave, then he blows me off just because his FRIEND wanted to watch a movie but has no one to go watch it with.

WALA KA BANG FRIENDS? sarap lang manapak.

OHHHHH IT'S SO FLUFFY? YOU WANNA DIE? LOL

Wala na, hindi ko na maalala ikekwento ko, sorry BV lang.

Sooooo work was kinda draggy, remember when I told you i don't like missing work? Well because it's hard to keep track when you miss just a day of sales reports and expenses and orders and whatevers. UGH! With Amis it's kind of okay i think but i wanna do the best I can to help lift the company. I play a big role there, so they all can keep track of the really important things. That's why I was hired. But yeah, shit happens. So can someone please get me a maid?

Dropped by TriNoma, and when i was about 22 steps away from Ecko, Jonas comes up to me and tells me they're drinking and asked me if I wanted to come with, and i can't so I just asked them if they wanna head over to my place. While waiting for a decision, I passed by ZooYork to inform Taggy about the sesh, he agreed, so we went back to Ecko to confirm, then YEAAAAH! We on tonight!!

Pretty crazy night, Matador litros and RedHorse muchos was the flavor of the night. And oops, I might have accidentally handed Buboy some bud. LOL *evil grin* I won't tell you what happened in detail, Jonas and Buboy can be veryyyyyy talkative at times. Anyways, Here are some eviden... Err, pictures I mean.

We got hella drunk, well, I think me, Aries and Taggy did. Someone puked on the plantbox and the other one inside the CR, both at the same time. LOL! I puked after they went home , just so I could fall asleep. My head was spinning like fuck and eventho I have no work tomorrow, I don't wanna wake up with a really bad hang over... just like last wednesday. UGH. So we gave up drinkig around 4AM? i don't really know what time but around 4AM is my best bet. Jonas and Buboy rode the motorcycle or the 3 of them did? Taggy stayed and told me he wanted to help me out to clean, but i was sooooo out of it, I went straight to bed and slept.

Little did I know that mister Taggy washed the dishes before he went home. HAHAHAHAHAHA!! I cannot imagine how drunk he was to think of washing the dishes -_-

Anyways, Good day, no work today. Just gonna hang around the house and try to stay sober for a coupla days.

Goodmorning!

...did i get home?

Was late again for work today, by 20 minutes i think. Not a long day for me today though i enjoyed every single minute of it. Today was very productive. THE AMAZINGNESS WILL NEVER END!!

I promise to update EVERYDAY. as much as i can.

HIGHLIGHTS BEFORE THIS DATE:
*Sunugan's finally over, but my debt isn't. Long story. There's a low quality video on YouTube if y'all wanna see me choke for like 3 seconds: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tCwh649cOC0
*Gian and I broke up for the sole reason that we were just triping both eventho or words tell otherwise.
*Then Tagz came, in a very unexpected way of being acquainted. Things are okay. So far so good. We'll see...*Working for Amazing Playground now at timog.

Soooooo, here goes.

Today was my first AMAZING day of work, and guess what? I WAS LATE. HAHAHA. My job happily consumes 9 hours of my day from 9:00AM to 6:00PM or later. I like my job now and i'll probably do it forever, aside from rapping and dancing and skating and whatever it is i can do. Tagz dropped by and brought me double cheeseburger (like he's tempting me to get all fat and sit on my ass all day) and fries, which i gave to Amis. lol.

Then it rained like hell. LAKAS TALAGA.

I still waited for Tagz to come pick me up, he got there around 7:30PM and by then i was still doing something, i enjoyed it too much, what can i say. He was with Mox, then we headed over WeLegendary to chill for a bit. Wong gave me hella stickers, i don't have a deck yet so i'm just prolly gonna keep it until then. Thank you Chin Ai! :) Then we headed to Sky Garden, the usual spot, and coincidently, the same spot Tagz and I sat at on our first 'date' HAHAHA. Then Pao came, then all hell breaks loose. KIDDING! We just had Tanduay Ice and Cheese Puffs and then they took me home. I won't tell you in detail the conversations we all had in the cab in respect to secrecy and whoever saw something better shut up HAHAHA.

Ohwell.
Time for me to go to bed, I don't wanna be late again. EVER.

Here's something to laugh about before going to bed.
Have a nice one guys!